"take me on a journey"

I dont know why but those are just the first words that came to minf when i clicked on that silly white box, you may have been informed kind reader that i am SOO into bloggin lately, its sorta what i do...
listening to belinda, not a very good song>>>>next please!
so i was thinking, if i were a door, what kind of door woul di want to be, where would i want to open...a house with two people performing a circus show... nooo an intimate love scene between i lively young man and an older woman hopefully named scarlett..no. (blink 182, god i loved them) hmm i think i would like to be a door to the bedroom of teenage couple just realizing that what they feel could be mistaken for love, or maybe well maybe just whatever you call the inability to peel your eyes off someones freckles when your 17...a letter was written today to a dear friend of mine...i cried, maybe a silent tear or two, it really sucsk throwing yourself into everything sometimes, because well seeing that it has happened so many freaking times to me, i wonder if any of it was really REAL you know? do i even know how to love? or just to look, appreciate, kiss, touch,scratch dream about.? i hope its more than that, if it isnt then i have something MINDBLOWING coming my way and i wonder if i will notice it or just mistake it for another one of those looks.
i look into blue eyes, green eyes and brown eyes today...my question is who's scars and freckles do i reallly want to memorize? are there any other colors...maybe someone with two different colors theres a conversatoin starter..now im just ramblng, wait thats wht this is for right? i just hope it doesnt turn into some moppey journal entry..
i wish some shiny dolphin (who can talk, DUH) would swim over to my bed and tell me the answer.
oh well.
au revoir.
(sorry this was so boring)